Friday, November 20, 2015

Bittersweet

Yesterday was my very last home visit with my midwife. It marked the end of this season of pregnancy and birth.

I'm snuggled up with my newborn while my toddler naps and just kinda feeling saddness and relief. It's going to be a good long while before we consider getting pregnant again.

However I'm am going to miss my midwife so dearly!! I can't express how wonderful my care was ..I was just telling Sam how the actual birth of Finley was such a microscopic peice in the whole picture of my pregnancy/postpartum period. 

Right off the bat, my midwife made me feel extremely important...she was clearly an advocate for my well-being...visits were less medical and more trust building than anything else. We would chat about my fears as a parent, or past events in my life that I still struggle with emotionally. I could tell her, without guilt, that I did not feel ready for another baby....she just really really cared....

Postpartum has been so much more reassuring this time around..to have known that I'd have another visit soon or that I can call when I literally feel like running away...a listening ear is priceless, not to mention the wisdom from a woman who has worked with (literally) thousands of families.

So as I close this chapter  of motherhood - I do so with a bit of a heavy heart..but also with great gratitude!